Lately, I've been thinking a lot on self-confidence and authenticity. Most of this has revolved around the recent work I've been doing for my business. I'm excited and nervous to say that Mats Down just became a Limited Liability Company! I've been stamped, sealed and tax-identified by the government. It's officially official! This has been my bridge toward fulfilling an invigorating desire to be a yoga teacher.
Now that I have "LLC" next to the name I've been going full-steam ahead getting logistics in order and figuring out how I am going to do this. I hired a legal consultant to check over some terminology and documents I'll be using. It's been a busy couple of weeks! Needless to say, I've stepped away from the blog content, but truly have been missing it.
My confidence level has been sky-high, especially since I recently got a teaching gig at a local fitness center. Then differentiating my business and taking time to revise and refine the logo and website. Boom! But just yesterday...it came out of nowhere. I don't even know what triggered it. I came down with a high fever of insecurity. I felt doubt, yes, the dreaded mixed drink of doubt and insecurity. Am I moving too fast? Do I even know what I'm doing? Should I know more about yoga and teaching before embarking on this endeavor? It all came crashing down.
Deep down, I DO feel confident in what I'm doing. I know I'm ready, and the confidence and power to teach from my heart is already inside me, ready. Perhaps as my first gig approaches, I am stricken with fear of the unknown. Just yesterday, I listened to a beautiful message spoken by Melanie Leithauser. She talked discusses our sometimes-normal tendencies for resistance. We will often approach with resistance or create it when something is uncomfortable, out of our comfort zone or new. Sometimes we can get so used to resisting that it becomes an invisible habit, and one that can cripple movement and change in our lives. She suggested practicing recognition of resistance and then consciously giving in to the tension. When we become aware of resistance in our life but then disengaging it, we can make space to "say YES". Her words were exactly what I needed to stand back up. Onward!
Are there experiences you've been wanting to say "yes" to?
What's in the way?
What are you resisting?
What if, by loosening your grip, you were able to unveil something spectacular?
Bring Authenticity & Confidence to Your Yoga Mat
This is my personal strategy when I'm beginning to feel doubt or insecurities in my creative endeavors. These three points are KEY to keeping your head high and following your heart.
1. When in doubt, start on the mat.
This first point may vary slightly for different people, but for me...my yoga mat one of the places I go to for clarity and those "how am I going to do this" moments. Since most of what we do on our yoga mat is movement, breath and soul...it's often a natural place to retreat to. Go to the yoga mat with only yourself and as neutral as you can. Move, dance, breathe, practice yoga...but make each movement or breath completely intuitive. This is the key to getting into a place of self-joy and non-expectation. Allow yourself to move fluidly, freely, organically. Trust in each movement, that it is what you need. Don't forget your 5-10 minute savasana at the end...where all that authenticity and confidence can soak in.
* This is a yogic practice because it forces us to settle deep into the simplistic and same-loving energy we share with everything around us.
2. Live-out what you know.
Take a few moments to look inside (or perhaps you need to write some things down on paper). You know what you're doing, or at least...what you want. Trust that part and live out the littlest moments that get you there. It's really the smallest pieces that matter, and often times they are the ones that can bring the most clarity. Not sure how to make your next move in life? That's okay...but what else will make you feel alive and "on fire"? Whipping up a new recipe? Do it. Live it! ...and feel good about it.
* Living what you know is SO yogic...and dharmatic (if that's even a word). What is life without feeling alive? Make sure to fully live out what you know to be true.
3. Reconnect with what works.
What's working right now? What's going well, and what feels right? Those are the things to focus your energy and attention on when feelings of insecurity takes over. Continuing down the path ease and simplicity is sometimes the best way to keep your spirits and confidence high. It doesn't mean you have to stay there forever, and it certainly doesn't mean you are avoiding a risk. Perhaps there will be some new insights or ideas that float your way that you didn't notice before. Connecting with what works is a great way to reconnect with the deepest rhythm of your heartbeat. Remember what that sounds like?
* This yogic practice is similar to the connection we learn in the Sutras to connect heart with mind. What makes sense? What is right? What works?
How do you use yoga to re-ignite deep authenticity and confidence? I'd love to hear your thoughts!
Hello, I'm Julie.
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