This post is part of a collection called "A Page in my Journal" which exposes a bit of my reflective and emotional side. It's literally an excerpt from my personal journal, shared with you.
A question inspired me when watching a speaking video by Danielle LaPorte.
"Are you allowing yourself to desire what you desire?"
Instantly I responded, "of course I am, why would I not do what I love?" But as quickly as I filled the space with that answer, another thought flooded my head. What if I'm not? Sometimes half the problem is that I'm still looking around for what I desire. There are some things I really enjoy doing. Is that what I desire? Perhaps I do know what I desire, but I'm afraid to look it straight in the eye. So, am I just fooling myself right now?
I've felt this over and over again. I've been waiting for a road sign to point me to the way. That never happens. At least not to me and at the very least not when you're looking for it. I wish it would in a way, because it would validate my belief that if you let nature guide you, it will. I imagine myself blindfolded, deep in a thick disorienting forest. I want that cool breeze on my face to turn my body in some direction. I want a soft push on my back. Am I missing the signs? But I've been watching, intensely waiting and watching.
Waiting. And here I've wasted all this time not doing, not failing, not finding, not moving. I do not believe nature or "life" will guide you to where you need to go. Closing your eyes and hoping for motion does not work. Movement only comes from physical change, ideas do not magically appear without someone, somewhere in the universe acting out a passion or desire.
Marie Forleo says, "Clarity comes from engagement, not thought."
Just like the wind, without motion there is no direction. This has become more truthful in my life each day.
Do you have clarity about what you desire?
What do you listen for (or do) when changing directions?
Hello, I'm Julie.
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